ART: MICHELLE BLADE
HOW DOES IT FEEL TO STAND IN YOUR PURPOSE?
This is the question my best friend asked me yesterday. She sent me a text, asking me after I had lead a workshop to help guide women back home to the Divine Feminine themselves. And although bringing the Divine Feminine alive within women is indeed soul mission work for me, when she asked me, I had no response. I felt totally blank inside. I thought about it all day, and didn’t respond to her because I didn’t have a response.
I thought “well, I guess I am standing in my purpose” but that isn’t what she asked. She asked how it FELT. And feeling is ironically what my most recent workshop was all about. It was about leading women back to radiant confidence within themselves by guiding them back to the well feminine wisdom that resides within. And in order to get to the place of radiant confidence, you have to know what your desires are … and in order to know what your desires are you have to be clear on how you want to feel in order to cultivate those feelings in your life.
So last night I took a big dose of my own medicine. I knew that in order to get clear on how standing in my purpose felt I had to get out of my head and drop into my heart - because the heart is the place that carries all of our intrinsic wisdom. With my thinking brain still blank, I climbed into my hotel room bed, sat cross legged, closed my eyes and began to connect to my breath. Deeply inhaling and exhaling, I came to a centered space within myself where my mind was quiet and my body was able to loosen into presence. And then I asked myself again, how does it feel to stand in my purpose?
And then words started flowing in …
It feels strong
It feels radiant.
It feels alive.
It feels wise.
It feels confident.
It feels firm, rooted, grounded.
It feels connected.
It feels inspiring.
It feels fun.
It feels rewarding.
It feels deep.
It feels raw, vulnerable, REAL.
It feels big.
It feels beautiful.
It feels calm.
It feels adventurous.
It feels uncertain.
It feels in flow.
It feels supported.
It feels grateful.
It feels RIGHT.
An so with all these words, I began to cultivate the feeling of not only BEING in my body but the place of BEING in my purpose as well. By connecting to my breath and a state of presence, I was able to tap into the feelings of truth and desire from my higher self - because though my mind was trying to skirt around the logic of the feelings - but my higher self knew what she felt and how she wanted me to continue to feel.
So I stat in this state of being, letting the words pour into my awareness … without attachment but with awareness for how each word felt when it entered the feeling realm of consciousness in my body.
And I realized, that this is a practice I will continue to cultivate daily. Sitting in presence for a few moments a day, connecting to my higher self and allowing her to guide my feelings toward the fruition of my desires.
